Want to be sure he’ll
be there,
Have to know that he’ll
understand the unbearable
pain,
Need to feel him in ways I can only
dream
about, and feel only guilt.
Taken from me is all I care for,
Weight.
Vomit.
Tubes.
Cannot forgive. All I wanted I disposed of.
Please stay with me. I need someone, something, you. Offer me the
primary, and secondary and tertiary do not matter.
Offer me a bowl. I fill it with the essence you once
refused.
Speak of times past and the future plus twenty-five is real.
Hate you for it.
Empty.
Cardinal sin was the only escape.
