performance is tomoro night… /me quivers. tomoro day is all about preperation and rehearsals in the actual theatre. i open the night also, with my scene partner, so i’m pretty goddamn nervous, but stupidly excited also. i have two crazily painful lumps in my neck (both of which appeared sometime between last night and this evening) – which i hope are due to stress and not gonna kill me or anything. might cover them up with a plaster or something – i’m a bum after all, i can look like a cripple and it only helps me to get into character 
i am going to perform tomoro even if it kills me to do so!
got some last minute costume things to prepare and then i’m set and gonna hit the sack. didn’t sleep a wink last night, scared myself somehow, thinking there was a deranged man at my door and out my window (god knows how he made it to both) coming in to get me. was quite cold and pretty damn scared, i tells you. i think that’s how i got the lumps – they could be stress related. all the while i thought i was dreaming. maybe i was? pah.
i was sleeping good also these past few weeks, but the stress of the performance this week and last week brought back my insomnia. i am pretty damn tired. my face also has suffered – got little red patches and spots on my cheeks. arg! who knew performing live would make this happen – it didn’t happen the last time!
anyhoos, going to sort stuff out… then sleep a much needed sleep. i leave you with a samuel beckett quote:
“Try. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.”
