I walked away from all of you to see what I can make of me.
You all mean so much to me -
more than I care to show you.
The things I choose to put me through only make me stronger,
but I confess,
I write at a time I need you all more than I can tell you.
The days have been hard and I’ve struggled the nights on my own.
Sometimes I feel like a stranger and sometimes I cry walking down the block because
I’m here, you see, and here to see which way my choices will take me tomorrow.
Tomorrow comes at a price, though.
A price I’ve sacrificed too much for.
It’s more costly than you, my love.
Although you’ve all been superstars for me,
I feel I’ve let you all down by not expressing my true feeling.
I’m saddened by walking into the house of the future and petrified because I can’t pass the gate.
I’m stuck in this netherworld looking behind me to see you all fading away.
I look forward again and there you are all clear.
I have so many things to say and no way of saying them.
I want to touch you so much,
but I’m reminded of how much I destroy myself.
You all mean so much to me now –
I’m encapsulated by your love and warmth.
Hold me.
Hold me again because I need to feel what it’s like.
Walk away from me again because I have to remind myself of
myself.
Me.
This is me.
Make it happen because you’re the only one who can.
