Given how much I really didn’t like the last year or so of my life, for various reasons I’ll only share with you in person, I’m now anxious to get myself back on track. The new year, new friends I’ll inevitably make, the new experiences I’ll have and the already existing brilliantly supportive and smart people that have stuck by me all go towards making 2010 a happier time for me. It’s not all been doom and gloom, but for those that have had to endure (with me) the trials and tribulations that have shown themselves in the past 15 or so months know that it hasn’t been easy.
It seems quite easy to just give up and continue to spiral into nothingness since that’s been my run of luck in recent times. So, the fear sets in. Can I get what I’m after? How do I plan ahead when the short term isn’t working? What’s it going to be like this time next year given two years ago life was amazing? Truth is, you just don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow.
So many ideas, wishes and wants make it hard for one person to achieve all of that, especially after such a long run of muck. But, I really don’t have much choice but to stay hopeful – especially with so many wonderfully generous and patient friends who have made this time an awesome one to be in, despite the misery.
Thank you, friends.
